MY PAST TWIN-FLAME EXPERIENCE,.

We can have so many soulmates in our life. Soulmates not always have to be romantically involve with us. It can be a friend, family, or love partners, soulmates comes and goes, some stay. And all of them teaches us something, sure it hurts when they are gone, but the pain is different, some people ended up with soulmates and complete their lifetimes without knowing or realizing ing or meeting their twin.

But when they do. Gosh, It's Heaven and then Hell for separation. Some of the people gave up on their twin in this lifetimes and ended up finishing the journey with their soulmates, and might reunion with the twin next lifetimes,. When I met my Twin, it's not only Full feeling inside my heart.

I was always thought the Movie are overreacted when they make the time stood still when two souls meet. But it is what happened, The Time was really Stood Still, all voices inside my head turn silent. I wasn’t t blink (i swear). I stood still. He did too. 

"I touched you once and felt like I had touched you a thousand times before. I’ve felt the energy dancing just below the surface of my skin ever since. a new kind of starving." - Unkown 

I don’t t know about twin flame back then, i was not prepared or ready for this kind of relationship. When i am with him, Spiritually I am fulfilled. It was Months of living Heaven, I never know Love can be so big and Beautiful like that. I love him MORE Than I love my self and everyone else that had come before. I loved him within a minute. It's like I have a spiritual awakening. I somehow connected more with the universe. After I saw him, I went home confused with the amount of happiness my heart can have. I think it is kinda overwhelmed, I was feeling Whole for the first time. He was much Younger, and maybe the amount of feeling like this wasn't easy for him. He literally left because he feels scared and overwhelmed.

But the thing about twin flame is…. there is the separation.
You mean to be together eventually. But maybe not in this lifetimes. You come to the union until both of you ready.  TF teaches me that I can feel the love that so Great.
But the separation teaches me that Great love has to be put to my self (self-love) first. Just by that. I will be ready to be entirely perfect twin for my Tf, and he needs to learn the same amount of lessons. When we both ready. The union happens. And it's not one lifetime's journey.
But I am people with a lack of self-love and anxiety like me. I don’t know if I will union with him this life.

To be honest, I am giving up our connection and realize that I should Focus on me. All this I do not because I wish the rewards of the union, it is because I can not bear the pain anymore.

People always said, “I want to meet my TF.”
DONT.
I swear God, I never wish this kind of a pain to another person. The separation is painful like you never ever felt before. Sure, the FIRST MEET, my heart was so FULL. I never ever touch the greater love more than that. My soul complete. And the Promises of Union is like Living in heaven.

But if you wonder how the hell would be like... the separation... that’s pure hell.